I meet U** Buddy

The day I lost May…somehow Sing Yee and wei pin both of my close friends, lost their’ buddy too…


The news came by in such a cruel way …unexpected…stumble down every single confident and belief which they always held dearly…upon life…believing in good…self-love…this were part of their promising friendships, an admiration toward this buddy. At the moment both of my dear friends were over shadow by such darkness.


He took his own life…in his own room, leavening a note and all others behind…leavening all the denials when they couldn’t come to accept the deadly truth. In other eyes he was a happy healthy person, who used to be very helpful, kind with his friendliness, lead himself with God servanthood, fear enough to live in obedient... his death was unaccepted by most of everyone. A fallen…


At the time I was not doing much in consoling my dear friends…all we did were to share talks about this person remembering his goodness…the truth I didn’t come to know this person at all…I only get to know him by his death.


Last day before I left Kampar pay a visit to Wei Pin’s house…I saw an old bible on the living room table …wei pin told me long time ago he actually borrow from this buddy…and never had it return … sadly he said …now there’s no way he is going to do that…he plan to put it on his grave…I took a look at the bible…it was a very old English new testament bible edited by oxford… a very good one in fact… i quickly advise him to keep the book rather then letting it be destroy at the grave…at that time I didn’t know why there was an urge in myself …just kept talking hoping I can change his mind…felt so sad and pity inside…yes he may have been gone but there still a little hope which he left for other…a smile of his has touches heart which they remember ….a word of encouragement he once spoken …a bible been left to a friend…surely it mean more then that…



It made me ponder upon God and him…What God had made for him …what himself have choose…is it a tragic?...or a give up on hopeless call? At his very last moment what happen there no body know…We may just jump on a conclusion when relate to suicide…sinful …stupidity…loser…give up…tired…at times of despair…coward.… we often cry out to heaven just like a fallen angel for His great mercy and forgiveness…


even though it was too late in restoring the life, course and action taken place with consequents to bear. I choose to believe God has forgave him…as well as left out a hope…to take on a new beginning, I hope very much his friends and love one come to see …all in His greatness.