Sunday, March 16, 2008

is that's ok with you

“wanna hold you in my arms when you cry…” just part of the Shayne Ward lyric

Have you heard of this song before? A nice sweet song which most girl like I guess…in fact
I love this song so much because got the cute chipmunks sound, and I find part of the lyric say true enough.

Remembering back…there was a time…some one did actually hold me in arms and I cried…because the feelings were like heaven on earth with the person you love so much, the next was deep down inside you sense what your following future goanna be, a separation …an end call. Time past by…and

Everyday until this very moment, I’m so glad and thankful to my Dear Father, upon I had came to met this person, all the outcomes, and He have bring it all to past. I’m glad that He pointed out and snapped us out from continue on sinning and sowed a fruitless harvest, by helping both of us gone through, even though we walk in separated ways. From this experience He really makes me see how I can be a more complete person, because all the long way of hope I wish to meet up a person who I hope he is brave enough and really could proof his discernment toward God, and I finally met up, and challenge me to be one as well. Experiencing a renew, and His forgiveness

I’m glad because even after a rejection, a blow, a misunderstood cruel word, my Dear Father keeps on installing all the faith and good things inside…I never really felt any anger or keep any hatred upon this person, in fact the feeling of caring just kept on growing, sometime a little thing I work on remind me of him. In my busyness I wonder off how he works, each time I saw a Tabasco souse bottle I remember his jokes and questions…off all the happy memories and smile crazily…when I read about him travel to any country again…it was a good happy news for myself…when I get to see his photos, his other side of world…I felt so glad things work out well for him along with God blessing. When he expresses some lowly feeling…me would genuine felt the same and try what ever best as being a friend. Keep on reminding of this person name to God in prayer hahaha. Sometime I felt so funny upon myself…wonder how this could happen to me asking am I still consider normal…when I had a good day I hope he does too…wish that one day he would able to find the one he seeks for on his own path way...

Through experiencing a love relationship with another person which had failed, it was not easy…it’s like the God’s secret , part of it we need to learn the lesson, part of the others we need to remain them as secrets …going through a grown wasn’t easy too because we need to be vulnerable all the times…

The lyric remind me of Jesus…if He comes up and asks “if I want to hold you in my arms when you cry…is that's ok with you? ...is that's ok with you?” a lovely song He always sing in my heart.