i meet u** Mr. Wong

Another night train this time around my coach picked up more passengers then last. So I need to sit beside an old Chinese man. At first I took out a booklet start reading in hope I could doze off early, so tired and hungry rushing with the hours.


Unfortunately , this 67 years old veteran began his chat, been working in the hospitality industry as waiter, bar tender and more…talks about his hobby which are traveling, gambling and help out at friend’s food stall on the occasion, a divorcee with two children taken away from him. His wife determines to return to Penang…he just kept talking; I didn’t dare to ask anything more personal just listen and noted my head…


Then he ask what I’m reading, so I show the booklet to him, title “everyday with Jesus” which I took from dad old collection. Then he says most of the time his friends invited him to their church, saying himself as a curious person fascinated with the unknown. He talks about the good news, what I can see this guy know wells…yet when I ask have he come to accept Christ…he say no…not yet…can’t …this were his answers…so I ask why not …he gave a long explanations for that exceptional and question me…saying… You see there was once I past by a road which the surface is quite bad filled with pits and red rocks, in heart he say to God, wishing the road condition going to change, surprisingly not long after the road did been rebuilt perfectly nice just as he wished, he take it as small miracle which God granted him. Then he say…when he saw rich people making big moneys he wish God to do the same for him when having a hand in gambling but God didn’t grant me that it’s so funny! Is that His miracles meant for small things only?…it really gave me a great laugh at the moment. I just think of “God help me…help him…” then I tried to answer with what ever I had learn or understood “He know what is best for us, sometime what we want and ask for doesn’t mean it’s the best, He bless everyone no matter how different we seen it as…may or may not be, we will learn his reasons in later days, then we will see how great and kind He can be for us, in the mean time we should be willing to accept and be thankfully as well kept a faithful spirit in heart for Him, cause He always give the best.


Then our conversation getting more fun and warm up…he kept asking questions, he was a loving person to talk with very polite, bold and open minded. He start again… why there are Christians in the church sometime having some melt down and tension among themselves, is not that their teaching always urge them to work in unity and in humble attitude? Shrinking myself along with little sadness as this is a real fact happening, remembered myself once having the same question in head but it’s a past “common grace” guess to myself…I say the teaching you know is true enough, but sometimes human can’t share the same actual perceptive, just like the divisions you see all around, yet their purpose and intention is still the same at the end of point… to serve the Lord and eagerly want to know Him better in different approach in different personal ways. Sometime we can prevent this kind of tension sometime we may not …I guess this question be best put back to ourselves not to other, are we behave well enough before Him, and before we judge others


He satisfied with it then moves on…felt like that night I was having a test or exercise…he point a common doubt question which everyone does…why there is God but why there is suffering in this world as well? Share with him my own story and introduce him one of my favorite Character “Job”. All night long we talks I guess the other passenger also felt annoy hahahahah! He say I’m very young to know all this things…he met up with couple of pastors, and I can become one which nice to talk with…this time around I really laughs with his comment… no way!! Thought to myself (balloon of faith is shrinking again hahahaa) …I’m only one of His…


As I was sitting beside this lovely person …love you my Father…I hope he knows too… you love him…upon all the reasoning…understanding…knowledge…wisdom…this world…when we come to see one another …a non believer, stranger, loner… made friend with them there is always a heart felt…felt just want to throw a love embrace around them…how this world would just stop for them, stop all the sadness, confusion, doubts just let them breath, walk out from their own hiding shadow, stop struggling the truth which they had known … no more disappointments, tension or self guilt which kept them apart from You when I think about how incapable in sharing such wonderful conversations with my own beloved mom… remembering a few persons I met eventually help change my life…I dove off with this till the next morning …I arrived at Sungai Petani station…wishing him and hope someday he really came to know Christ…another beautiful morning…another unexpected to catch on…You really enlarge our vision day by day… as You put on a special glass for my lazy eyes; I begin to see clearly your huge graceful painting, at the same time picking up the significant finesse details.