clossing in....

it's closing time...


my last chapter for this year...
for almost 8 months i am here, doing what i love and still believe in...
on Christmas eve i was working , restaurant and rooms were fully book...guess on that night i was given a chance to grasp upon the meaning of silent night. Surprising everything seem too slow and quiet inside the hotel without much decor or any Christmas carol, my hotel is not so grandeor at celebrating the red season. felt so gloomy while imagine the highlight of Christmas eve that church and people out side celebrating...being apart from my family and dear...another word is miserable

Accidentally cut myself and though really how stupid i was without focusing, my grey cloud grown much heavier with my temper... my bloody finger caught the attention of a guest sitting at the bar...he offered the help, that moment made me glad but i rejected his offer cause shy, before i walked away he manage to said " Don't cut yourself again". Then i though of Marry...she needed helps on that night, someone did opened the door for her and Jesus although it just a manger better then nothing. The beatitude of the Jesus birth event is to reflect the loving kindness that endures for the sake of humanity. so quiet and calm...all was beautiful...at the heart of celebrating...hymning my favorite songs until i had a back lane caroling with sabahan trainees hehehe.