I meet U** Din

9.00pm night train the journey took me from k.L CENTRAL to Butterworth. I prefer train cause i get to read along the way home as train was brightly light up all night long. This time around the passager were lesser then usual so it feel free and easy. Stretching myself occupied both two sites, laying my back on the window with a book on hand there start my reading…one station to another station up till Slim river.

…at this stop, a person came up the train, a middle age malay guy sitting in front of me. He also then sitting with the same position laying on the window…so we actually see each other through a narrow space. He smile and greet in soft spoken English, a nice ascent and good manner, there thought to myself...then like the usual stranger talk we asked about our destination, reason for going and coming… we share a nice conversation …asking…giving opinion …laughters…waiting for the long night to pass.

Called himself “ Din”, to my wonder and curious I did get my question’s answer …he had been to L.A. before…studying and working for years…sharing his experience upon how the outside world look like and giving advise, but the most is sharing his deep secret thought to me I guess. During the oversea stay when he was young, he did actually met a girl, Taiwan Chinese… sharing his story upon how they first met, up to the regular dating in a corner of local starbuck, love each other very much, a lot of laughter and sweetness, seeing and believing a future. But all end when they finally decide to marry, been the only child of a family, parents of the girl disagreed and had set a condition for Din to choose, he must gave up his Malaysian citizenship in order to marry her.

At the time Din finds it hard to make a decision, most of the days both were fighting, most of the time she was crying …Din said…finally the girl get tired, give up move out to New York…starting a new life…then in short period of time she marry to another man. At point of time Din suffer greater sadness...saying it was too hard to bare with the days till the extend he turn toward alcoholic....Din did say about it’s too hard to forget and it’s too painful to bare at the moment of his life.

Luckily one day his friend found him and gave a helping hand. So he recover…soon his mother call him to return home…Malaysia. Arranged a match for him and get married…until today.Din say…he love and miss the girl very much but it’s too late to return or change the past… add up with his joke saying “ a mata sepek girl like me did really made him remind about her ”now everyday he felt bless as well each time watching his wife sleeping by his side. He told me he had a good, understanding and kind hearted wife who is now mother of two lovely children. ..i guess I’m the luckiest person that night sitting in a train…knowing a man secret.

Once again a thought shock my head….thinking
She is a lucky girl too because a man get to kept her deep inside his heart…review in the time of secret…remembering her. I was wondering then looking at myself….is there any person out there remember me? Been the special one in heart…this i don’t have the answer, but one thing for sure myself is like Din keeping a person inside, even though it ‘s not really my own will, most of the early morning his smile will be there …as in my memory…hoping one of the morning it will be like a mist fade away one day…

We talk until 7.00am when I need to get off of train saying goodbye to him...wishing each other …Butterworth…almost home…