clossing in....

it's closing time...


my last chapter for this year...
for almost 8 months i am here, doing what i love and still believe in...
on Christmas eve i was working , restaurant and rooms were fully book...guess on that night i was given a chance to grasp upon the meaning of silent night. Surprising everything seem too slow and quiet inside the hotel without much decor or any Christmas carol, my hotel is not so grandeor at celebrating the red season. felt so gloomy while imagine the highlight of Christmas eve that church and people out side celebrating...being apart from my family and dear...another word is miserable

Accidentally cut myself and though really how stupid i was without focusing, my grey cloud grown much heavier with my temper... my bloody finger caught the attention of a guest sitting at the bar...he offered the help, that moment made me glad but i rejected his offer cause shy, before i walked away he manage to said " Don't cut yourself again". Then i though of Marry...she needed helps on that night, someone did opened the door for her and Jesus although it just a manger better then nothing. The beatitude of the Jesus birth event is to reflect the loving kindness that endures for the sake of humanity. so quiet and calm...all was beautiful...at the heart of celebrating...hymning my favorite songs until i had a back lane caroling with sabahan trainees hehehe.

Tips

seem like i had abandon this site.
well after a big round, finally i can settle down a bit.

find times to finish my favorite author Mitch Albom's book.
a book could do wondrous of things to a reader mind... i guess so.. did some review.
before that i kept on resent of not going to Liverpool, keep on finding a way out.. my eagerness to explore another side of the world...
may be today i had gave up...or by unintended choice i had found the contentment inside...

thanks God for showing me...there are always different way of viewing things...
i still can explore other countries through the guests that i met everyday...exchange stories and culture as long as i willing to open up my senses. Get to receive extra euros as well ahahah.

one thing i learn as an Asian or malaysian...we are not so proud of our own country ...in compare with the westerners, i concluded many reasons, 1st we as asian are humble people...too humble in fact, 2nd our standard quality is really not up to theirs, 3rd we re too busy admiring them, 4th we re too busy copying them. At the same time we look down on our own counter part.